Salinger, Prison and Marriage

I was on a role with writing short stories the past couple of months. I have two of which I am very proud and both just need endings, although I can't actually find one of them at the moment... but my writing muse drifted away with J.D. the other day. I haven't had a single idea or written a creative sentence since. He finally escaped this life, so I am not terribly sad, but there is an unrequited romance within my chest which still believed there was the slightest chance of ever meeting the man. It was a reality check wrapped in a sombre shroud. Anyway, on to the next topic.

If ever you think your life is terrible and you have it rough, go visit a prison and meet the inmates and families of inmates whom I deal with every work day. If that doesn't stop your whining, I'm not sure if there's any hope for you.

You might have noticed my absolute lack of communication lately and even though I explained some of it in previous journals, I now have a few more details. I am marrying my boyfriend of four years this Halloween and in the Spring we are moving to Northern California in order to attend Humboldt State University. Big life plans and changes leave very little room for an internet social life, so my apologies.

That's pretty much it... I thought I had more of an entry in me, but I guess I lack the inspiration. Nighto.

Future

I've sat here for a few minutes, looking at the blank box and trying to decide what to type. Over the past few months I have lost friends and gained back people from my past who really mattered to me. I've started working at a job which is the epitome of dead-end, yet it pays well, so I don't quit. I've regained focus on my school career and have made new plans which better encompass my goals and lifestyle. All in all, I'd say that 2010 is looking bright and I'm proud to say that my internet life is suffering.

I am getting married this Halloween. It's pretty amazing to think about, really. We are going to visit a couple of venues this coming weekend and it's all very exciting. For the first time in my life I can honestly say that I feel like an adult. I'm paying for my own cellphone, working full time, going to school full time and soon I'll be moving out of my parents house. I'm even taking up my car insurance payments soon. I no longer have the feeling that my life is going nowhere and I'll be stuck in California for the rest of my life, unhappy and normal.

Michael and I will be moving out of state, either by the end of this year or the beginning of next. I really have my heart set on Wyoming, but we are also considering Colorado, Texas and Montana. I'll finally be able to transfer to a good school. My degree is pretty much complete; I just need the last classes that only a four-year can provide. After I attain my B.A., I'll begin teaching and working toward my M.F.A. I'm really happy about this plan and the thought of being a teacher as I work to build up my own little ranch and write.

My cookies are ready to come out of the oven now, so I'll leave everyone with a thank you. Without the support of my friends, I would never have lasted this long.

Repetition

Posting again to MySpace. I'll eventually post something interesting and useful here, I swear. I just need time... and a break from life.